It seem a long time or months that i last post someting up here.

A different feeling as compared to the previous posts, lots of changes to the person writing this blog (me) to the extent i can;t recognize myself anymore. Sometimes i juz wonder why i will be someone like this, landing myself in such a situation.People around me or close to me will be shocked to see me turning to such a person ~ i dun believe it either...

Perhaps i juz trying to run away from some things..

I dun tink i could ever go back to the past.. the innocent.. the hardworking..

I hate the current self.. the current devil that live inside me.. so much so feel like tearing myself apart.... i want to sing my fears my sorrow my pain but i can't.. i cannot summon any energy of mine ..

i can only live this alone..

to my best fren (jac mok) : i miss the days in sec school when u will listen to my sorrow when everyone tinks i juz a weep.. juz wan to thank u and sorry i didn;t move on to the right route that if u knew .. u would have stop me..